I am not so open to sharing my life, but recently something has changed and shifted. Let me explain. I have always been a believer in God. You could say a Christian, religious person, but I never categorized myself as that. I always say I am “Spiritual”, as my life, experiences, gifts & talents were all inspired by God, & given by God. I wasn’t a normal kid. I desired to live up in the sky and fly. At night, I always looked to the stars, like I wanted and wished to be there. I never stop looking up. Some believe I am looking for God or Jesus. My desire was to go home. My real home. I had a gut feeling that I belonged in the sky, as a child. I started having live open eyed visions, visitations from passed on family members at the age of 14. It was scary. Then dreams of people passing. This was a gift I thought?! Why me? I went to speak to a minister at the church I attended, to inquire about these visions & dreams, as it does say in the bible that young & old would encounter this. The minister asked if I did drugs, drink or take medications & that I should stop and get counseling. At 21, no. My heart told me never to talk of it, just leave it alone. I did experience more visions & dreams though. I was not ready at 14. At 27 yrs old I had a beautiful daughter Cha’nel that passed after 2 weeks & another child a boy that I miscarried. I began dreaming of them together and started seeing them around the house playing, lauging, talking. Normal stuff, right? They never left me. Now, visions are my life daily & so are my dreams.
In 2003 I got sick and experienced a NDE (near death experience) where I was visited by angels before I died, went to heaven, was greeted by 3 people. We spoke telepathically & I felt no more pain. I felt unconditional love that stayed with me for 3 months,after returning back,then it diminished I wanted to go back and receive that love again. I realized it was still in me to this day & others feel it, but they told me that” they told me too much and I had to go back”. After coming back, it was painful getting back, but I healed quickly. I have thyroid disease and if you miss your doses or are given the wrong doses, it can be fatal.
I started praying and laying hands on people & they healed at church. Another gift? Then I started knowing things about people. How could I? Last year something started happening & I changed. I woke up!! Spiritually. I stopped going to church, not because I did not believe. I still do. I started getting downloads of information. Overall, I let go of old habits, beliefs, thought patterns, healed my inner child, see life & situations in a different perspective,etc.,etc., changed my diet drastically, and have intuitively read for people who lost loved ones a few or more times. No charge. It just happened. I know stuff. I connected with their loved ones who passed on & messages of love have been shared. I shared this only because my life has changed. I always knew my life was different. I always knew I was here to help others. I thought it was through feeding the hungry/ homeless, clothing them, praying for them through ministry all these years. God had a greater purpose and I have an Attitude of Gratitude. Spiritually I have changed,and I am right where I am supposed to be, doing what I am supposed to be doing at this time for the highest good of all.