True, life is full of ups and downs. It feels like a rollercoaster ride with the loop de loops. It does not feel happy and joyous all the time. Maybe it is because there is so much energy on this earth. From all of the people. Don’t get me wrong. I love all people.
I just am not at a stage in my late life to endure the rollercoasters. Seriously. I have gotten too old for this. With age there comes wisdom. You out grow all the immature stuff. But to tell a adult, look here I am grown and mean it, takes some pretty good assertiveness. I don’t like being treated as a child. Although I have no problems skipping around with my daughter of 20 years old and my son of 31 years old. You are as young as you want to be and feel. Do you know I can still do cart wheels. I am over half the century old? I have people tell me I look 29 although I know they are only being nice. I believe that I still have my youth and that I can be as young as I want to be and feel, for as long as I want to be. I met a woman after church on Sunday, who was 83 years old, but looked 50. Seriously. She said she has been blessed with good health all her life. Now I have not been blessed with good health, but I believe that what you feel in your heart and in your mind, you can make a reality by manifesting it. Holding on to it and affirming it. Life is not like a box of chocolates……… It is better than that!
I have been going through some real heart wrenching emotional stuff. Have you ever just felt so real, so authentic and true to yourself that, you know what is going on and you are not going to feel like you have to hide from the world, just because you
are going through some stuff in life. I don’t want to always smile, because I do, all the time. I want to be real, yet still I smile.
l also, don’t want to speak to those at work who choose which day of the week they want to speak to me and carry on a conversation with me, yet I say good morning to them and everyone else that is nice to me. I just want to be authentic and say if you don’t want to speak, then don’t. I am not upset about it. Just be real and authentic to me, not fake. They do it to so many people in the office and we don’t care anymore. I thought oh, I will think more higher of them, they may just be having a bad day, or something happened at home. Nah! No excuse is needed. This is just them! I would rather be like them at times and not speak to them as if they did not exist. But, why do I always feel guilty and take the higher road and do what is right. I don’t know I am just aligned like this. I have realized that is my real, authentic and true self……….
Have you ever faced a situation that you knew was not right for you, but you decided to stick it out. It may get better you tell yourself. And it to no avail it just keeps getting worst. Sometime in life you come to a cross road where you have to make a decision that will be best for you, no matter how hard it may be. I have given the benefit of the doubt for 12 years and it is time to STOP! Just stop!. It does not matter how good you are, some people always try to find something bad in you to start an disagreement to try to make you look bad. Sometimes you can’t always be nice. Because how does the old saying go….People will always take advantage of your kindness. I learned something also this time around. I can take with me the fact that I learned a lesson and I gave my all and the time has come to let things in my life that don’t suit my purpose or rather that are not working to just let them go. We all know that not making a decision just hinders you and hurts you. You prolong the agony that is going to come. Last night I let it all go. I dreamt all night of being on a different life’s path, and how happy, fun, peaceful and fulfilling life I will have now. I did not wake up sad, but relieved and ready to go forward with my life. I got my eye on the prize and I am going to have the best life, no excuses now. Anyone that does not fit into my purpose will have to be left where they are.I have been in limbo for about 3 years now. I know now when I have a decision to make, to make it quick. Decisions….decisions…decisions… My decision has been made. Many blessings to Me and to you that gets this….